I’m starting to become confused
about what’s going on inside.
I’m not sure what to believe,
Is it truth or is it lies?
I feel like I cannot trust you.
You never tell me a thing
It hurts so much inside,
I don’t think I can win.
What makes me upset
Is you don’t see the pain in my heart.
Just because I trust you blindly
and I’m starting to fall apart.
People are intentionally hurtful.
They have no consideration to others just as long as they can accommodate their own feelings, and their own needs. People have no faith for what they cannot see and feel. What matters to them is what or who is present at the moment.
And, they always weave an extravagant web of lies to serve as your trap. Tragic, yes, the more you try to get away the more you get entangled in the web. There is no getting away. The lies are going to corrupt and devour your soul.
I am in the web.
I am trapped.
I feel helpless.
I want to break free.
The best and one of the most unforgettable classes I ever had was the lectures of Prof. Josephine “Pepin” Aguilar in Sociology. Although I hadn’t taken up previous Sociology subjects prior to that, I never appreciated the theories on society as well as I have during her classes.
Within the four walls of Room 103, everything has reason, all can be explained. Detaching ourselves from the rest of the world, we sat by our desks as critical viewers of society, analyzing and expounding on things, taking sides, and then changing perspectives.
The moon is a loyal companion. It never leaves. It’s always there, watching, steadfast, knowing us in our light and dark moments–changing forever as we do. Everyday, it’s a different version of itself. Sometimes weak and wan, sometimes strong and full of light. The moon understands what it means to be human. Uncertain. Alone. Cratered by imperfections. -cfaithlopez
I hope that every night is like this. I never felt so dreamy. I’ll just look up and smile so sweetly. *heaves a deep sigh*
A social theory that made much impact to me during my studies was the Iron Cage Theory of Max Weber. With the increasing modernity, men tend to get trapped in the rational order. My own interpretation of the theory: Man becomes enslaved with the bureaucracy of social expectations that he forgets to live like a human person.
Life is short. Live it up.