Dear Future Boyfriend

I’ve always dreamed of writing my own letter to my future boyfriend. Perhaps my not-so-intentional random thoughts pushed me to write down my sentiments for him. So here it goes…

Dear Hun/Sweet/Love/Baby/and other odd names that I may call you,

First off, I might annoy you on calling you crazy and out-of-this-world names but do understand that it is my way of showing you my affection. Do not hesitate to tell me if I’m way too far.

Secondly, remember that when I commit myself to you, I chose to embrace all my fears of being hurt and having a crushed heart, but hey, it is you. And I think it would be worth it when (under unavoidable circumstances) you will hurt me. Remember, I opted to be in this relationship and I will be willing to listen to your reasons and understand you since I want to make this work.

Third, I do not know how to become your dream girlfriend but I would at least try to be a really good one. I will cook for you, will be sweeter, will be a better person for you and I am looking forward to learn new things with you… and with US.

Fourth, I believe that having a partner is seriously having a partner in everything you do. We are a tag team here, so please be aware that whenever you need an opponent for a throw-pillow-fight, a navigator when you drive, a stylist for your business meetings and other things, I hope I will be the first one you’ll call.

Fifth, I know you have your own thing and I also have mine but in the end, it is still with you whom I want to share the significant things that happened in my life. I want to share how many sets of lapses I did on my swimming workout or how i was so giddy-happy preparing for your favorite dish for dinner. I want to share with you how did my challenging work go and how did I perform well. I want you to be the first person who will hear those stories and I hope you do the same with yours. I will be looking forward to your stories everyday and even before we sleep at night.

Finally, I know I have been single for a year or so and still counting because I only wanted a REAL RELATIONSHIP, and now that I found you, I can’t promise that I will let you go just like that since I have waited and prayed for this so long.

And I said these three words only to my family and friends, and now I want to say it to you…

I LOVE YOU and I AM GIVING YOU MY HEART.

Love,
ME

Return

Life does things to you. Actually no, you do things for life. Sometimes you calculate it all and it comes out all premeditated. It makes sense. You visualize it, you analyze it, and you do it. You’re proud of what you’ve done. You hope for the best.Yet, sometimes you do things and you don’t really think about it. It’s like you were partially blindfolded. You have no idea what’s going on behind the blinds, but you think you’re on the right path.

 People make mistakes.

 I’ve made too many.

Where does this leave me? Who have I become? Am I still the same person? Am I really making the same stupid mistakes all over again? Did I calculate this? Or was I partially blindfolded?

I actually don’t know anything anymore. I walk aimlessly and I fear the next step.

What have I done?

I didn’t want to be here again. I didn’t want to be “that woman.” I didn’t want to have to write in this anymore. I didn’t want this “inspiration,” but here I am…
 
I’m back.