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You wake to find love crushed at your doorstep. As if overnight someone had tried to slip it under but it was too big, too unfamiliar to fit in your chest.
The earth shakes and all the cities under your skin are falling. And no one is around to hear it. Are you still broken if nobody witnessed your collapse? So you carry it with you.

All this crushed love, these quivers of excrutiating pain. And they never tell you how hard it is to lose love in people. How at night you can still feel your heart tugging towards them.

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Superwoman and Other Metaphors of Cruelty

People are intentionally hurtful.

They have no consideration to others just as long as they can accommodate their own feelings, and their own needs. People have no faith for what they cannot see and feel. What matters to them is what or who is present at the moment.

And, they always weave an extravagant web of lies to serve as your trap. Tragic, yes, the more you try to get away the more you get entangled in the web. There is no getting away. The lies are going to corrupt and devour your soul.

I am in the web.

I am trapped.

I feel helpless.

I want to break free.

Soul

When two souls fall in love, there is nothing else but the yearning to be close to the other. The presence that is felt through a hand-held, a voice heard, or a smile seen.

Souls do not have calendars or clocks, nor do they understand the notion of time or distance. They only know it feels right to be with one another.

This is the reason why you miss someone so much when they are not there– even if they are only in the very next room. Your soul only feels their absence– it doesn’t realize the separation is temporary.

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Can I ask you something?

Anything.

Why is it every time we say goodnight, it feels like goodbye?

Dear Future Boyfriend

I’ve always dreamed of writing my own letter to my future boyfriend. Perhaps my not-so-intentional random thoughts pushed me to write down my sentiments for him. So here it goes…

Dear Hun/Sweet/Love/Baby/and other odd names that I may call you,

First off, I might annoy you on calling you crazy and out-of-this-world names but do understand that it is my way of showing you my affection. Do not hesitate to tell me if I’m way too far.

Secondly, remember that when I commit myself to you, I chose to embrace all my fears of being hurt and having a crushed heart, but hey, it is you. And I think it would be worth it when (under unavoidable circumstances) you will hurt me. Remember, I opted to be in this relationship and I will be willing to listen to your reasons and understand you since I want to make this work.

Third, I do not know how to become your dream girlfriend but I would at least try to be a really good one. I will cook for you, will be sweeter, will be a better person for you and I am looking forward to learn new things with you… and with US.

Fourth, I believe that having a partner is seriously having a partner in everything you do. We are a tag team here, so please be aware that whenever you need an opponent for a throw-pillow-fight, a navigator when you drive, a stylist for your business meetings and other things, I hope I will be the first one you’ll call.

Fifth, I know you have your own thing and I also have mine but in the end, it is still with you whom I want to share the significant things that happened in my life. I want to share how many sets of lapses I did on my swimming workout or how i was so giddy-happy preparing for your favorite dish for dinner. I want to share with you how did my challenging work go and how did I perform well. I want you to be the first person who will hear those stories and I hope you do the same with yours. I will be looking forward to your stories everyday and even before we sleep at night.

Finally, I know I have been single for a year or so and still counting because I only wanted a REAL RELATIONSHIP, and now that I found you, I can’t promise that I will let you go just like that since I have waited and prayed for this so long.

And I said these three words only to my family and friends, and now I want to say it to you…

I LOVE YOU and I AM GIVING YOU MY HEART.

Love,
ME