Terrified: An Open Letter to my Dearly Beloved

To my dearly beloved Markus,

I have been thinking about this song for a week now and I wanted to share with you how beautiful it is. So, I played it on my ukulele last night, with you in my thoughts while I sang each line from the lyrics.

You might wonder why I loved this song. The lyrics say it all. . I can say that I’m very much related to this song because that is how I felt at first. Remember when I cried in front of you (in Romblon) while expressing my fear of entering into a new relationship, and yet you gave me a different feeling of what I should believe in when I met you.

It is entitled, Terrified. It means that it is something you’re afraid of. Like losing that person, or even afraid to try new love because I am afraid that it might turn out again into a failed relationship, but you changed how I felt about this.. About US.  You gave me the assurance that you true love is merely different from my past and if I would open more of myself to you, you would be everything that I needed. You touched my soul and told me not to hold it back, and so I did… and everything started so wonderful.

You may not be my first love but you gave me a deeper soul connection with you when you came along, everything became so different unlike before. I will forever be thankful that I we found each other, my Soulmate…

I love you so much, Markus. I will forever love you.

Love,

Faith

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So here here’s how the song goes:

 

Lyrics:

TERRIFIED by Katharine McPhee

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In the world full wrong
You’re the thing that’s right
Finally made it
Through the lonely
To the other side

You said it again
My heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I’m at the edge
Of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I’m in love
And I’m terrified
For the first time
In the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It’s already better than that
And nothing’s worse
Than knowing you’re holding back
I could be all
That you needed
If you let me try

You said it again
My heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I’m at the edge
Of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I’m in love
And I’m terrified
For the first time
In the last time
In my only

I only said it ’cause I mean it
I only mean ’cause it’s true
So don’t you doubt what I’ve been dreaming
‘Cause it fills me up
And holds me close
Whenever I’m without you

You said it again
My heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I’m in love
And I’m terrified
For the first time
In the last time
In my only life
Life
Life
In my only life..

Soul

When two souls fall in love, there is nothing else but the yearning to be close to the other. The presence that is felt through a hand-held, a voice heard, or a smile seen.

Souls do not have calendars or clocks, nor do they understand the notion of time or distance. They only know it feels right to be with one another.

This is the reason why you miss someone so much when they are not there– even if they are only in the very next room. Your soul only feels their absence– it doesn’t realize the separation is temporary.

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Can I ask you something?

Anything.

Why is it every time we say goodnight, it feels like goodbye?